Last day of my undergraduate lectures!!

Today is the officially last day of my undergraduate lectures!! Next week will be study week, then follow by the final, and seriously final exam of my undergraduate studies!!

How time flies...

What do I do next? Where do i go next? Seriously, I'm not sure... Continue studies? Money is my BIGGEST problem. Look for job in Australia? Very very hard, given that i'm no PR nor i have any industrial experience. Go back to Malaysia? Half of me says yes, another have reluctant to, unless I have no choice. Not within my control though.

Sigh..

Only 2 subjects for finals this time. Handed in my Intro to Research report and lab book. So whatever done is done, can't change anything. The 2 subjects for final, I'm aiming for 7. Make this final semester as my best semester in UQ. Kambate!!

GYM!!

It has been two weeks since i last hit gym. The pass two weeks were crazy for me, with the assignment, take home exam, and also super long lab hours. Finally here comes the teaching-free week. Hitted gym yesterday with Carol. 30 minutes Ab-blast followed by one hour Body Pump. No cardio. Pure muscle work for 90 minutes. Stretching and flexing hard, and with weights to add on the difficulty. I'm not ambitious, hence i started with the lowest weight: 1.25kg on each side. It was nice. Tired but nice. for whole duration nothing was on my mind except "Push harder! Work all your muscles!". Really nice work out. I think i'll go again next week.

Besides that, teaching-free week is finally here, follow by mid-semester break. No lectures for two weeks. But tonnes of things to be done! I have one more assignment due right after mid-sem break. And i have to finish off all my lab work of Intro to Research project so that i can start focusing on my lab report and poster presentation due next month. Stress...

 

Gambate to myself! Less than two months till final exam's over!

报章里的文章看到这样的一句话：

演講或寫作的深度和力度，原本就是生命的深度和力度。或能欺人，無法自欺。

所以心講最高，腦講其次。嘴講等而下之。

在此提醒自己。 

在网上看到的故事：

[从前有个秀才，和一大户千金私订终身。
怎知大户千金最终嫁给别人，秀才大受打击，一病不起。
家人到处求医，用尽各种方法都无能为力。
眼看秀才奄奄一息，一游方僧人得知情况决定去点化秀才。
僧人到秀才床前，拿出一面镜子让秀才看。
秀才看到一名不幸遇害得女子一丝不挂的躺在沙滩上；
第一个人路过，要了摇头，走了；
第二个人路过，于心不忍，脱下衣服，给女尸盖上，走了。
第三个人路过，挖了个坑，小心翼翼的把尸体掩埋了。
秀才看了不解，虚心的向僧人请教。
僧人解释说，沙滩上的女尸，是千金小姐的前生。
僧人接着解释道秀才是第二个路过的人，曾给过千金小姐一件衣服，故今世和秀才相识，只为还秀才上世赠衣之情。
但是她最终要报答一生一世的人，是最后把她掩埋的人，也是她今世的丈夫。
秀才恍然大悟，就病愈了。]

有种感触。。。

started my research project in lab yesterday!! and omg. there's tonnes of things i need to learn. tonnes of reading. have to revise my statistics and use of SPSS too.

went to gym yesterday. after almost three months without exercise. X-training. super tired. whole body aching now.

got to write up my lab book. should be done in lab, but karen gave permission to me to bring home and write. have to show her tomorrow. dunno how to write. > <

tomoro gonna be long day for me. 8am to 2pm non-stop. what the heck. think i gonna eat during lab meeting. if not, in lecture.

miss him. in awkward situation now. someone tell me what to do.

I'm back in Brissy.

Things are as usual. But feelings are so different. Feel so strange, like getting into an unfamiliar place.

Been unpacking and setting things in order. Uni starts tomorrow. New start. Aiming higher this time. Highest ever.

This coming 4 months decides how my life will be for at least the following one year or two.

Excited, nervous, and stress.

Internet connection back home has been really really lousy. It took me so long to open my email, let alone letting me blog.

Will put up the BBQ pics as promised once the connection is stable enough, and when I have the time to do so.

Today (it's past midnight now) is Idy's convocation. Would like to attend the ceremony, but at the same time, mum wants me to accompany her to her gathering with her colleagues. Reason? She claims she does not know how to get to Jusco Tebrau City. It's just an excuse for me. And worse thing, she said she feels hurt if I don't accompany and spend time with her. She said when I came all the way back, she hoped to spend time with me. But then, I think I spent most of my time at home with her. The only exceptions were when I spent one afternoon with Yin Ping, 5-days away from home to Nilai and KL (left house Thursday and reached back home on Monday), a steamboat dinner with GS friends, and Wei Sien's birthday gathering at Redbox Karaoke. For about 3 weeks back in Malaysia, I spent more than 2 weeks staying at home. And now she's saying I don't spend time with her. What the heck?! If she feels hurt, how about me? Does she thought of my feelings?

Sigh...