They say,
"You can get lost by overly immersing yourself in one thing, and one thing alone."

I guess
that's why i'm lost.

going home

I'm going home!!
Got my ticket home and back to Brissy.
But now, i kinda regret.
Weird me huh?

wanna change job for long
now i have a chance
but don't know how to tell my current manager

He's a nice guy.
Told him pretty last minute that i am going back home
and have to take leave
He told me
don't worry, just go home. you will still have a job here when u come back.

It's not good to tell him now that i might apply for new job, rite?

sigh..

i still wanna go home, and will go home!

Can i go home?

I know it's impossible.. or near to impossible.
I have no money.
I know if i tell my parents, they will let me fly home as soon as i want.
But i know it well
It'll be an extra expenses for them if i go home.
It's hard enough for them to earn and loan enough money for me to study here.
I know i shouldn't be selfish.


but...
i seriously feel like going home.

never in my life i feel so home-sick before.
never.
i feel like rushing home as soon as i finish my finals.

can i be selfish?

when nothing seems to be right

and i don't know how to face them...


feel like just walking away
from everything
everything


disappear to a place
where no one know me


i'm trying to
keep everything in control
but i'm losing grip


slipping away...

Cried and cried and cried non-stop last night.
Tears just flow for no good reason.
Feel that I always trying to make other people happy.
How about myself?
I don't know.

My eyes are dry now. No more tears.
Hope will be better day today.