Sunday, October 17, 2010

我们不是永远都那么勇敢

我们不是永远都那么勇敢 ——— 万芳



你总是在快乐的时候害怕不快乐
在19岁的时候担心二十岁就老了
你害怕你比较爱他
才说话却没有朋友
孤单用匆忙走过



你喜欢被赞美却只记得被批评
你羡慕别人去忘了自己
害怕有天年华老去
想坚强却突然伤心
眼泪和微笑长存



我们不是永远都那么勇敢
不是每一次都可以强壮
当爱情离开的时候难过
亲爱的 我也曾经这样



我们不是永远都那么勇敢
不是每一次都可以强壮
当寂寞来的时候会心痛
亲爱的 我和你都一样



你总是在快乐的时候害怕不快乐
在19岁的时候担心二十岁就老了
害怕有天年华老去
想坚强却突然伤心
眼泪和微笑长存

我们不是永远都那么勇敢

不是每一次都可以强壮
当爱情离开的时候都难过
亲爱的 我也曾经这样


我们不是永远都那么勇敢
不是每一次都可以强壮
当寂寞来的时候会心痛
亲爱的 我和你都一样

Sunday, October 10, 2010

LOTS have happened in the past few months. A few things that happened recently have got me thinking about people, about friendship, about trust... I feel shattered. Trying hard to hold myself together without breaking into million little pieces...Someone told me I'm too nice. Too nice that people took advantage of me. Maybe that person is right. I'm contemplating my definition of friends, and my parameters of trust....

Saturday, October 9, 2010

因为还活着,所以痛一下也没关系

生命只是一个过程
过程就是你要去享受开心的,痛的
“原来痛是这样的, 哭是这样的”
所以要把这些都享受完
你就是在活着
当生命没有了,就没有了

你可以感受到的每一个喜怒哀乐, 都是因为你还活着
好的,不好的,你都要接受
这样你才完整地过了一个生活

我们常去抗拒一些事情与感受
“我不要这样,我不要那样”
有时候,痛一下,其实也没关系
因为还活着,所以痛一下也没关系


Life is just a process
A process that you should enjoy the fun and pain in it. 
"Oh, so this is how it feels like, pain and joy"
Therefore, when you enjoy all these completely
You are alive
When life is gone, these will be gone too


You can feel every emotions because you're still alive
Accept them, whether they are good or bad
And with that, you'll live a full life


Sometimes we resist some of the things we have experienced and feel
"I do not like this, I do not want that"
Sometimes the pain, in fact, does not matter
Because you are still alive

Sunday, October 3, 2010

If you hate a person, you hate something in him that is part of yourself. What isn't part of ourselves doesn't disturb us. --Hermann Hesse (1877 - 1962)

Saturday, October 2, 2010

此刻的我,正坐在落地窗前,看着这城市的天际线。天色随着日落慢慢变暗,而城市里的灯光渐渐点燃。这个楼层只有我一人,四周异常安静, 只有电脑里播放的音乐轻轻的哼着。我的心情,也随着这样的气氛慢慢沉甸……如果能一直这样,多好……

Friday, August 6, 2010

Today's first day on the ward for this placement. Paediatrics is something really different. I'm in cardiology/renal ward, but coincidently all my preceptor's patient are not under cardio/renal unit. Had a quiet afternoon, our patients' all good, so for first half of the shift we've been helping out other nurses.

So, my first exposure of paeds:
- Had a 5-hour-old new born baby girl admitted into the ward for congenital heart defect. Definitely my youngest patient so far!
- Played with 5-month-old baby girl who was admitted under General Medicine. Active, cute smiling baby. Got a chance to feed her milk too. =)
- 2-year-old boy woke up from nap and realised his mummy was not there. No one managed to coax him, and I had to phone his mum to come back to ward.
- Had 2 patients from Oncology. They are the older children (7 and 10 years old), so pretty easy to take care of.

That's all I can think of now. Quite tired despite having an easy shift. Lots of new terms to remember. And I have to try to get used to the shift work again. Can't wait for more challenges!

Time to sleep... Ciao~!

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Kinda abandoned this blog for awhile. >.< Life was so busy last semester that I didn't really blog anything about it. Time to re-cap!


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Last semester:


Placement at Neuroscience department was great. Interesting patient, hectic workload, great learning experience. Did alright in the subjects. Not extremely happy about my results, but I think I should feel contented.

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Semester break:

Went down to Canberra. Passport was done. =)
Meiyin was here for holiday. EAT and EAT was the agenda. :P Suffering from the aftermath now. >.<
Kenny got offered scholarship in UNSW and hence moved out. No more "*knock knock* Irene you want tong shui?" from Kenny. =(
Esther moved in and become my housemate! :D

And then... start of uni... >.<

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This semester:

FINAL semester!!! I think it would be even busier than last semester. 4 subjects and no final exams mean lots of assignments due date throughout the semester. Having a study group for a separate exam preparation as well. Consistent studying and working on assignment will be the best way for this semester.

Having placement at cardiology/renal ward of the Children's. Today is the first day of placement. Spent most of the morning having ward orientation. Most of the patients in the ward are less than 2 years old. Seeing sick little children, with tubes going in and out of their bodies makes my heart flinch. Maybe I should think it from another perspective, that it will be nice seeing them getting better and able to live a healthy normal life.

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I guess that's all for now. My brain is kinda messed up with congenital heart defects terminology and issues of management of aboriginal health at the same time. Can't think. >.<

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

I think...
I've just lost a friend...

Or maybe, I've already lost her long time ago...

:(

Saturday, May 22, 2010

我想回家
真的
很想
回家

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Of bruises and abrasions...

Oh well, again, haven't been updating my blog for some time. The hectic schedule, lack of interesting topic to write, and most importantly lack of motivation to blog caused the lack of entries. >.< And finally, I feel like writing something.

Went to Collingwood Children's Farm yesterday with Grad House friends. Initially I was supposed to meet up with some of them at train station, and catch a train there, while N and E were supposed to cycle there. However, yesterday morning, N gave me a call and asked if I'm interested in cycling there, as E couldn't make it. And, I made a bad decision. I decided to join N and cycle there.

I think that's a bad decision because first, I haven't cycle for a long long time. When I mean long, I mean years. Second, I had to cycle in the city with cars driving past me on a very busy road. And yet, i decided to join N for the ride.

Well, straight to the point, I fell. A few times in fact. The last fall was the most serious and most scary one. I suffered from a number of abrasions on my left arm, few abrasions on right arm, bruises everywhere on both legs, and a bruise on my chin. >.< I feel so sorry to N for making him worried about me! And we took 2x longer than it should be to reach our destination, as I had to ride so slow.. and N had to ride slow because of me too...

We reached the destination alright, and met up with the rest. Breakfast at the cafe was great. Shared the "Farmer's breakfast" with WH. The little farm was good. Goats, sheep, cows, horses.. It was good shopping trip for some of us too, as there was a farmer's market on that day. Cooling weather, nice sunshine to give a little bit of warmness, nice blue sky with some white clouds.. The weather was perfect for a day out.

Then the trip back to Grad House. This time, we took the longer route. I think it's about 2 to 3 times longer than the route we took to get to the farm. However, this is a proper cycling track. No cars or anything. It's along Yarra River for the first part of the journey, and it's AWESOME!! I managed to get rid of my nervousness, and had a better control of the bike. Love the journey back! Although some part of uphill cycling was killing, but no more falls along the way! Just a few stops for little break and water. =)

In conclusion, I enjoyed the trip to the farm and the cycling journey! And huge thanks to N for being so patient with me. I hope the next time we cycle together (if there's any chance), I won't embarrass you or make you worry at all.

Sunday, February 21, 2010

新年快乐~!

今天已经是年初八了。第二次没在家里过年,感觉空空的。人在异乡为异客,每逢佳节倍思亲,这段诗形容得特别贴切。 在外孤单一人,感觉蛮寂寞的。

有assignments要做,但总提不起劲。这还真不是件好事情。没办法,加油吧!

Monday, January 18, 2010

那些事情 我终于看仔细

歌名:显微镜下的爱情
歌手:黄义达
专辑:无法定义

滴答滴 听天空 在哭泣
洗掉了一些梦 埋葬在城市里

滴答滴 听时间 往前去
好象在预报着 未来的连续剧

一封信 一件旧的毛线衣
谁是谁的纪念品 拿什么来回忆

一场雨 狠狠下在眼睛里
爱在生老病死后 已经都没关系

问自己 没有你我行不行
显微镜里看爱情 残酷的放大所有爱的原因

遇见你 之后 爱上你 然后 狠透你
原来 爱是回不去的旅行
亲爱的 让我忘记你 那些事情 我终于看仔细

遇见你 之后 爱上你 然后 狠透你
原来 爱是回不去的旅行
亲爱的 我要忘记你 那些事情 我终于看仔细

遇见你 之后 爱上你 然后 狠透你
原来 爱是回不去的旅行
亲爱的 让我忘记你 那些事情 我终于看仔细

深夜里 捷运站 飘着雨
我看着马路边 另一对我和你

Saturday, January 2, 2010

Happy 2010

Happy new year!!

Did not update anything for the last three months of 2009. Too many things happened, too little time to blog.

Anyway, "Be strong and courageous" will be my motto for the year, where courageous means that you do something in spite of the fear you feel. So I plan on being very courageous this year by using that fear. Hope this coming year will be a great one!

Cheers!