They say,
"You can get lost by overly immersing yourself in one thing, and one thing alone."

I guess
that's why i'm lost.

going home

I'm going home!!
Got my ticket home and back to Brissy.
But now, i kinda regret.
Weird me huh?

wanna change job for long
now i have a chance
but don't know how to tell my current manager

He's a nice guy.
Told him pretty last minute that i am going back home
and have to take leave
He told me
don't worry, just go home. you will still have a job here when u come back.

It's not good to tell him now that i might apply for new job, rite?

sigh..

i still wanna go home, and will go home!

Can i go home?

I know it's impossible.. or near to impossible.
I have no money.
I know if i tell my parents, they will let me fly home as soon as i want.
But i know it well
It'll be an extra expenses for them if i go home.
It's hard enough for them to earn and loan enough money for me to study here.
I know i shouldn't be selfish.


but...
i seriously feel like going home.

never in my life i feel so home-sick before.
never.
i feel like rushing home as soon as i finish my finals.

can i be selfish?

when nothing seems to be right

and i don't know how to face them...


feel like just walking away
from everything
everything


disappear to a place
where no one know me


i'm trying to
keep everything in control
but i'm losing grip


slipping away...

Cried and cried and cried non-stop last night.
Tears just flow for no good reason.
Feel that I always trying to make other people happy.
How about myself?
I don't know.

My eyes are dry now. No more tears.
Hope will be better day today.

Do whatever i can, at least to prevent things from getting worse

Broke down again last night. Tears just flowed out like never-ending stream water. Worse still, i had to pretend I was not crying when talked to mum and dad on phone.

Don't know why i have such high production of tears. To wash away my fears? To wash away my stress?

Just read this from a friend's blog:

"We should always try our best to give our best shot in everything in our life.

However, if some problems stop thing from going smoothly, we should still do our best even the outcome might not be the best.

If the situation is really really bad, we can at least still do whatever we can to prevent thing from getting worse."

Will do my best.

Quote a line by Sun Yat Sen, the Father of Modern China
心信其可行，则移山填海之难，终有成功之日；心信其不可行，则反掌折枝之易，亦无收效之期。

deadlines

1 assignment due today! And i still have the last part to finish! That's not good!

Another assignment supposed to due tomorrow. Luckily it got extended till coming Monday. Will try to finish it by Sunday evening.

One assignment due next Friday, and another on the following Tuesday.

Deadlines, deadlines, deadlines!!!